I.am.One

Q.I.S

2012-01-03T04:37:00.000+08:00

this is Qis when she was 1 years old

my niece will starts darjah 1 tomorrow.

seriously has it been 7 years already? *down*

anyhow, may another 12 years Acu could visit you here in UK =)

p/s : Qis, study smart, bawa perubahan kepada agama dan negara kita k?

and this is she now =) a very brilliant grown up girl

Meruncing

2012-01-02T04:24:00.000+08:00

Risau. Sedih. Bimbang

Negaraku Malaysia pada suatu ketika dahulu penuh aman. Rakyat hidup selesa dan makmur. Namun ada segelintir yang masih berhempas pulas demi kelangsungan hidup.

Akhir ini, seperti ada dua arus yang kebangkitan yang bersemarak. Arus perubahan politik secara vokal dan lantang, serta arus pembentukan individu berakhlak dan intelektual.

Arus perubahan politik lebih berunsurkan provokasi dan tuntutan perubahan drastik berpaksikan kesamarataan antara rakyat. Big result, fast.

Arus pembentukan individu lebih kepada perubahan akar umbi yang bervisikan perubahan jangka panjang namun sangat diyakini efektif.

Matlamat kedua-dua perjuangan adalah mulia, namun caranya amat berbeza.

Aku lebih meyakini perjuangan pembentukan individu, yang sekarang ini popular dengan gelaran OSEM.

Life Test

2011-12-13T18:22:00.000+08:00

Hari ini saya belajar tentang ujian. Ujian yang Allah bagi tu merupakan satu antara dua, sama ada untuk detachment atau balasan Allah.Ini pilihan yang Allah bagi kepada orang Muslim bergantung kepada reaksi kita terhadap ujian tersebut.

Sekiranya dengan ujian itu membuat kita lebih banyak bertenang, bersabar, bermuhasabah, bersyukur, berdoa mengharap kepadaNya, maka ujian itu adalah detachment kita daripada perkara-perkara dunia yang melalaikan. Proses ini tidak lain hanyalah proses pembersihan diri kita yang telah deviate sikit dari path yang betul dan sekiranya kita “lulus” dengan ujian ini, maka akan diangkatkan darjat kita.

Case Study #1 :
Ahmad ada isteri. Dia ada masalah rumahtangga dengan isterinya. Kalau Ahmad bersabar, muhasabah balik diri sendiri kat mana silapnya, insyaAllah rahmat Allah itu akan hadir selepas itu. Maka dengan izinNya, rumah tangga mereka akan bahagia.

___________________________

Sekiranya dengan ujian itu kita marah, sedih, murung, stress dan kesemuanya meleret-leret tanpa had, maka ujian itu satu bentuk balasan kepada kita di dunia.

Case Study #2 :
Rashid ada isteri. Dia ada masalah rumahtangga dengan isterinya. Kalau Rashid react dengan kata-kata kesat, mencaci isterinya, mencari kesalahan orang lain selain dirinya, memukul anak dan isterinya, maka Rashid akan jauh dari rahmat Allah, malah akan menjadi lebih jauh.

Walaupun reaksi ini di tangan anda, namun ianya bergantung kepada hubungan kita dengan Allah selama ini. Mari muhasabah. Sebelum rahmat Allah itu tidak terjangkau lagi.

Be a Man

2011-12-09T18:16:00.003+08:00

Seorang lelaki harus ada visi
Lepas subuh tak tido lagi

Seorang lagi harus punya kualiti
Lepas masak terus kemas serba serbi

Seorang lelaki harus punya misi
Tingkatkan kualiti diri

Seorang lelaki harus mencari
Baru nanti cepat dapat calon isteri =P

Syukur

2011-12-07T04:24:00.001+08:00

Budak kecik selalu x dpt buat mcm2 sebab mak kata "kamu kecik lg...nnt dh besar nk buat, buat lah.."
Tapi bile dh besar ni ramai org akan ckp "i miss my childhood.."

Rindu bukan maksudnya mahu. Impian bukan maksudnya mampu.

P.I.L.O.T

2011-12-01T09:00:00.008+08:00

"Good morning ladies and gentlemen. Welcome aboard. My name is Captain Nur Muhammad Safwan Azman. I'll be your pilot for today's flight MH 002 from Kuala Lumpur to London. The journey would take 12 hours and we are scheduled to arrive in London at 8am local time. For the time being, just sit back and relax and our cabin crews are always around to assist you. Have a pleasant journey."

*kecik-kecik dulu selalu cakap sorang2 berangan cmni. nak sangat jd pilot dulu. but skrg semuanya lain. dan Allah itu sebaik-baik perancang. =)

"Tetapi boleh jadi kamu tidak menyenangi sesuatu, padahal itu baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal itu tidak baik bagimu. Allah mengetahui sedang kamu tidak mengetahui"(Al-Baqarah : 216)

UK Strike

2011-11-30T22:51:00.003+08:00

Hari ini, 30 November 2011, ada demonstrasi terbesar seluruh UK. Terbesar dalam 30 tahun. Hampir 2 juta populasi menyertai.

Saya lihat, semua pihak rasional. Demonstrator rasional kerana mereka merasakan hak mereka dirampas. Polis rasional kerana mereka bertindak mengawal demonstrasi. Saya lihat sendiri dalam sebuah video di BBC. Ada juga polis yang mendahului perarakan. Dan saya beranggapan, bukan menyertai, tapi mengawal. Semua tersusun. Tiada perasaan yang ditunjuk. Hanya menyatakan ketidak puashatian. Bunyi demonstrasi yang paling kuat hanyalah bunyi hon-hon tangan yang biasa di dengar di stadium bola.

Pihak kerajaan juga rasional. Saya percaya arahan kepada polis dikeluarkan. Dan arahan itu saya percaya berbunyi begini. “Polis, mereka nak berdemo. Maka pastikan keadaan terkawal, aman dan makmur. Tidak lebih, tidak kurang.” (of course David Cameron cakap dalam accent British English, bukan bahasa Melayu)

Ini hasil jika semua bertindak rasional. Tiada ego untuk mempertahankan kebenaran yang belum pasti.

Have We Done Enough?

2011-11-27T16:59:00.004+08:00

Exam. Sakit. Stress. Masalah.

Dugaan yang rata – rata dialami oleh semua orang. At any point in life, pasti kita akan ditimpa musibah.

Tatkala terkena musibah itu, kita pasti akan kembali padaNya. Doa tidak putus – putus, mengharapkan bantuannya. Jantung pasti berdegup kencang, sambil mengharapkan doa dimakbulkan.

“Surely, with difficulty is ease. With difficulty is surely ease”
[Al-Insyirah : 5-6]

Janji Allah itu pasti. Pengulangan Allah dalam dua ayat berturut – turut bersebab. Dan setiap perkataan yang difirmankan juga bersebab.

Maka lihat diri kita sekarang. Senang. Selesa. Kita telah dikeluarkan dari kesusahan itu.

Tapi berapa ramai yang dekat dengan Allah tatkala senang? Adakah kita terus berdoa seperti waktu susah kita dulu? Adakah kita solat dan mengaji ketika kita terdesak mengharapkan pengkabulan doaNya?

Lihat musibah dari dimensi berbeza. Sekiranya kita tidak ditimpa kesusahan, masakan kita mampu menghargai kesenangan.

Jadikan waktu susah kita sebagai bekalan waktu senang. Kerana syukur itu bukan hanya dibibir.

Bagi yang sedang ditimpa musibah, tenanglah. Senyumlah =). Kerana janji Allah itu pasti. Bagi yang sedang meniti kebahagiaan, bersyukurlah. Dan nyata, syukur itu bukan hanya dibibir. Ujian dan nikmat itu datang dengan pakaian yang berbeza, namun berkongsi matlamat yang sama. Untuk menilai jiwa hamba yang bersyukur.

Peringatan untuk diri sendiri yang selalu lalai.

Terima Kasih

2011-11-27T08:43:00.006+08:00

Terima kasih.

Pelik. Sejak dari kecil lagi, aku percaya, korang dah familiar dengan phrase ni.

“Yeay dpt duit raya!” “Cakap ape boboy?” “Terima kasih uncle =) ”

Dekat kelas, sepanjang 11 tahun di sekolah, sehari tah berapa kali ucap “Terima kasih cikgu”.
Siap berintonasi lagi. Semua sekolah 1Malaysia intonasi sama.

Tapi bila dah besar, langkahan kaki ke alam dewasa seakan menghilangkan ketamadunan masyarakat.

Mungkin kita tak sedar bahawa ucapan terima kasih ini merupakan satu penzahiran kesyukuran diri kita di atas segala pertolongan dan sumbangan orang lain. Kita tak sedar bahawa sumbangan orang lain itu pada hakikatnya bukan dari orang itu, tetapi dari Dia. Orang itu cuma perantara antara Dia dengan kita.

“Time kasih pn tidak! Pastu siap nak komplen2 lagi!”

Nah. Impak 2 perkataan ini boleh sampai menimbulkan perbalahan. Keadaan jauh lebih baik sekiranya pada awal lagi 2 kata ini diucapkan.

Sorry KRU. Wrong move this time. Lain kali, daripada cipta lagu 3 kata yang agak ‘lame’ itu, lebih baik cipta lagu 2 Kata. "Terima kasih". Dapat juga pahala.

Salam Maal Hijrah 1433

Spread Love

2011-11-24T22:18:00.004+08:00

Politik. Bila bincang pasal politik, semua orang suka. Hangat perbincangan berlangsung. Tak dinafikan, saya juga kadang kala asyik dengan perbincangan politik itu.

Ok, jom kita duduk kejap. Tenangkan minda dengan segala kekusutan politik yang melanda.

Pada pandangan minda saya yang masih lemah ini, orang suka berbincang tentang politik ini punya visi yang jauh. Cakna dengan masa depan negara. Sungguh terpuji sekali sifat insan seperti ini.

Namun, berbincang dan mengkritik politik negara merupakan dua dimensi yang berbeza.

Mudah. Berbincang memiliki dimensi ilmiah dan intelektual yang tersendiri. Perbincangan mungkin tidak terpengaruh dengan anasir-anasir ketaksuban yang berat sebelah. Diskusi politik lebih menjurus kepada keprihatinan terhadap pembangunan insan yang menagih keadilan yang saksama.

Mengkritik pula memiliki dimensi yang berbeza. Kritikan terpengaruh dengan unsur partisan yang nyata berat sebelah. Perjuangan sebelah pihak dianggap paling mulia dan di sebelah pihak lagi bagaikan jijik tanpa secalit kebenaran.

Di kedai-kedai kopi, mengkritik lebih banyak dilihat dari berbincang. Kritik politik, x susah sangat kot. Cari kesalahan parti yang tidak disokongnya, hentam habis-habisan.

Berbincang agak sukar. Perlukan timbang tara yang adil dan daya pemikiran kritikal supaya matlamat pembangunan insan dapat dicapai.

Ermmm..wahai pengkritik-pengkritik sekalian, kalau sekadar maklumat yang menjadi senjata anda hanyalah dari Youtube, media sosial, blog, media perdana dan seumpamanya, mungkin anda hanya patut simpan rapi maklumat itu untuk diri sendiri dan fikir, cukup sahih ke maklumat ini? Kalau aku bawak info2 ni kat FB, dan orang lain percaya lantas menyebarkannya, tapi nyata kesahihan masih samar, agak banyak juga kerja Malaikat Atid kelak sekiranya info itu tidak benar.

Fokus utama kita adalah pembangunan insan. Untuk berdiskusi politik sehingga mampu untuk membangunkan insan, hanya para bijak pandai yang mampu. Kita mungkin hanya mampu berdiskusi tapi BELUM mampu membawa diskusi itu untuk pembangunan insan. Tapi sedarkah kita sebenarnya pembangunan insan boleh bermula dari rumah? “Eh benda ni semua orang faham kot bro. Spread love lah senang cite.” Tapi, kalau kita buat survey, berapa ramai malam ni dia makan malam dan solat berjemaah bersama semua isi rumah? Berapa ramai ibu bapa yang puji anak kecil dia walau sekali hari ni? Berapa ramai suami yang berterima kasih kepada isteri yang gosok baju kerja dia hari-hari? Berapa ramai yang hari ni mampu membuatkan ibu bapanya tersenyum?

Spread love peeps.

effort

2011-11-20T17:08:00.003+08:00

usaha untuk menjadi pelengkap kepada bakal teman hidup di syurga kelak.

Hantaran

2011-11-16T19:30:00.002+08:00

Last night was a very heartwarming night for me. My friend, Ammar Roslizar announced that he's getting married this 16 December 2012. Congratz bro. May Allah makes everything at ease for you. =)

And as usual, amongst the question was "brape hantaran kau mar?".

Many of us did not know what is the purpose of hantaran in the first place. Many of groom-to-be thought that the whole RM 8k, RM 10k, RM15k or any other "many zeros" figures will be enjoyed purely by the bride. Hence cause their rants on expensive hantaran. "Parents perempuan nk jual anak", "Igt aku anak menteri ke nk bg RM15000 kt anak kau" blablabla.

But according to my dad, who (alhamdulillah) has 2 married daughters to this date, dowry is not for the bride to enjoy. It is actually a budget, prepared by the groom to support the expenses for kenduri on the bride's side.

Today, the trend for wedding is it wud be prepared by a group of professional caterer to serve all those delicious foods. I'd prefer gotong royong/rewang as it wud save lots of quids compared to catering but in this modern world, that budaya seems vanished away. It's very lucky for those of you who still have that kind of neighbourhood, you are not going to burn your pocket to ash.

So to make it global n general, let us assume catering is a norm.

Let us do a simple maths here,
For a modest walimah, roughly the guests wud be around 500-600.

Catering = RM 10 per head (we are talking bout nasi minyak, with 3-4 lauk, kuih muih, air, upah pekerja catering, upah tukang masak, sewa buffet set etc. And this is not the cost for city like KL, which is even more expensive)
Gazebo + tables n chairs = RM 1000?
Pelamin+make up+sewa baju = RM1200 - RM1500?
Baju nikah = RM 200-300
Inivitation card = RM 500
Kompang + bunga manggar + bunga telur/cake as the doorgifts = RM 600-700?

Total : almost RM11k (estimated)

I knw it's very hard to admit but these are the facts. Cost of living today is far way more expensive than before. Blame the inflation (blame ourselves for not having any effort to fight inflation).

So, for grooms, unless you can change the tradition, you better start to save a quid each day. =)

Part 2 : koyak + happy = lagi sedap dari rojak

2011-11-16T06:25:00.001+08:00

haihh...it happened again..=)

Alhamdulillah...praise be upon Him...

He's the one who touches our hearts..
He's the one who give us rizq through love..
He's the one who guide us to the right path..

Barakallah..=)

p/s : jarang kita alami peer pressure yg indah. i cudn't be happier. =)

Do We Forget Something?

2011-08-14T23:49:00.003+08:00

My dad who takes mainstream media as his source of info, as i believe other 55 years old man does the same, in wonder ask me while im driving,

"kenapa dlm byk2 tazkirah yg ayah pernah dgr, kt msjd or kt tv, xde pn sentuh pasal jgn buang sampah merata-rata, bawak kereta ikut undang2, cmne nk perbaiki attitude dan akhlak.."

Honestly im speechless and continue driving. indeed, he's true.
berfikrah harus syumul. tidak boleh sekadar melalui blogging, tweeting, FB-ing semata.

Kisah Aiman, Cikgu Saleh dan Salam

2011-07-10T13:06:00.002+08:00

Aiman baru darjah dua. Dia suka matapelajaran Matematik. Cikgu Matematiknya bernama Saleh.

Cikgu Saleh seorang yang kaya raya. Dan anaknya juga belajar dalam kelas yang sama dengan Aiman. Anaknya bernama Salam.

Pada suatu hari, Cikgu Saleh buat pengumuman di kelas, satu minggu sebelum ujian pra-peperiksaan pertengahan tahun. "Sesiapa yang mendapat markah 95% ke atas, cikgu akan berikan hadiah Aiskrim McFlurry. Sesiapa yang dapat markah lebih rendah dari itu, cikgu tetap akan berikan hadiah, iaitu Aiskrim Malaysia berperisa Asam Boi.

Aiskrim McFlurry mmg menjadi kegemaran Aiman. Tempoh seminggu sebelum peperiksaan digunakan untuk belajar dengan bersungguh-sungguh.

Salam juga suka aiskrim McFlurry. Namun, dia hanya mengambil sikap sambil lewa terhadap peperiksaan yang bakal berlangsung. Dia terus menerus bermain tanpa ada effort utk belajar.

Hasil usaha berterusan Aiman membuahkan hasil. Dia mendapat 98% dalam peperiksaan matematik itu. Manakala Salam hanya mendapat 72% dalam peperiksaan yang sama. Namun keputusan sebenar itu belum lagi diberitahu kepada murid-murid Cikgu Saleh.

Cikgu Saleh bermain kotor. Dia tahu yang anaknya Salam sukakan Aiskrim McFlurry. Kerana tidak ingin anaknya kecewa, dia telah menambah markah Salam menjadi 95% dan menurunkan markah Aiman kepada 83%.

"Tahniah cikgu ucapkan kepada Salam kerana hasil usahanya yang berterusan, dia berjaya mendapat 95% dalam peperiksaan Matematik kali ini. Oleh itu, cikgu hadiahkan Aiskrim McFlurry ini kepada murid kesayangan cikgu merangkap anak kandung cikgu ini."

"Thx daddy," jawab Salam

Ketika ditanya kepada Aiman tentang perasaannya, "Aiman x kesah. Dah dpt aiskrim malaysia ni pun Aiman dah happy sgt. Aiman sayang Cikgu Saleh sbb dia selalu bagi hadiah kat Aiman. Terima kasih Cikgu Saleh. Tahniah jugak kat Salam sebab berjaya dapat 95%. Aiman tau Salam memang pandai.X belajar pn die boleh dpt."

Sweet Little Thing

2011-07-07T09:02:00.004+08:00

I took a train as usual to work. But this morning isn’t like any other day.

As I hop onto the coach, I grabbed the holder on the rail to hold. Beside me, there was a couple.

The guy was standing, the lady was sitting in front of him filling the vacant seat, as the guy gave space to her.

Based on the ring on the guy’s ring, I assured that they were a married couple.

Their finger cling to each other few times along the journey.

When the train was approaching Hang Tuah Station and the lady preparing herself to hop off the coach.

Before the train stopped, she shook and kissed her husband’s hand.

As she stand, a little peck on her loved one cheek was given "secretly".(both were like segan2)

As she walked out the coach, she wave to the guy.

THE END.

*this is why marriage is sweet*

Owh, lepas train tu jalan balik, lelaki tu kuarkan hp n main game. LOL

Aku Sayang Malaysia

2011-06-28T14:10:00.001+08:00

Alhamdulillah, tepat jam 10.01 malam, 25 Jun 2011 aritu, tayar pesawat Airbus 320 yg aku naiki mendarat di LCCT. Teruja, seronok, bahang menemaniku sepanjang perjalananku dari pintu pesawat ke lapangan terbang. Setelah selesai pemeriksaan immigration dan mengambil bagasi, aku terus menolak trolley ke arrival hall untuk berjumpa dengan keluarga tersayang.

Seperti yang ku jangka, kesemua ahli keluarga menjemputku pada malam itu. Gembira, namun agak terkilan kerana yang istimewa tidak dapat hadir atas urusan keluarga. Namun ketika sampai di arrival hall itu, ku lihat wajah itu sedang berbual dengan ibuku. Hatiku kembali teruja. Dia dah pandai buat surprise. hehe.. :)

Fine, guna ayat biasalah. Kekok lak nk guna ayat novel nih..haha..

Keesokkan hari, aku pergi ke KLCC untuk menukar duit plus shopping sket2. Agak rimas mata aku melihat anak muda belasan tahun yang berada di KLCC itu. Dengan dress up mengalahkan Beyonce dan Pitbull, mereka berhibur bersama rakan-rakan.

On the way balik ke rumah, once again aku rasa rimas. Kali ni dengan pengguna2 jalan raya di Malaysia. Setahu aku, kerajaan xde pulak kuar statement haramkan penggunaan signal kereta. And xde lak JPJ buat rules time traffic light kuar kaler merah, penunggang motosikal boleh curi2 jalan kalau xde kereta.

Serba x selesa aku. Baru dua hari di Tanah Air.

Dalam kereta, ada sorang penyanyi, beri nasihat khidmat masyarakat. Generally yg aku igt la, dia nasihatkan kepada student2 Malaysia, sesiapa yang berhasrat untuk further study overseas, teruskan la usaha yang bersungguh2 sebab kita xkan tau how good is our country selagi kita x keluar dari sini, dan rasai sendiri pengalaman berada di negara orang. Artis ni dikhabarkan mmg study kt overseas untuk beberapa tahun. So aku percaya yg dia ckp atas pengalaman, bukan just dibayar untuk iklan tersebut.

Aku mmg sgt2 stuju dengan artis tu. Setelah bermastautin di England selama 2 tahun, byk yg aku pelajari dari ketamadunan penduduk British.

Peramah
Aku berani cakap customer service di UK mmg sgt2 terbaik. Pergilah ke kedai ape2 pun, baju, kasut, souvenir, hampir setiap kali aku shopping, time tgh2 tgk barang tu, for sure akan ade pekerja dia yang approach aku dan bertanya "hey mate, are u alright there?". Kat Malaysia, sgt jarang kita nak counter dengan situasi2 sebegini. Yang banyak disajikan adalah muka masam, layan nak xnk bajet cm pelakon KL Gengster.

Courtesy
Kat UK, semua smokers dilarang merokok dalam premis. Diorang kene keluar bangunan, baru boleh smoking. Kawan aku pernah counter dengan situasi camni. Time tu die tgh lepak depan pintu sebuah bangunan ni (outdoor). Mungkin nak ambil angin or sumthing. Situ mmg pot mat2 n minah2 saleh ni smoking. Tp diorg punye concern dgn orang lain, ade sorg mat saleh ni tny kat kawan aku, "do u mind if i smoke here?".
Kat Malaysia pn aku rase, rules yang sama digunapakai. Dalam premis mmg xleh merokok. Apetah lagi di tempat2 awam. Tapi yang slalu aku n kawan2 aku counter, contohnya kat kedai makan, ramai je yang merokok selamba. Macam dia sorg je yg makan kt kedai tu. And yang lebih menyakitkan hati, makin dia perasan kita x selesa dengan perangai dia tu, makin dia buat muka bangga dan makin rancak lak dia merokok.
Udara ni Allah punya. Nikmat yang dia berikan ni adalah untuk semua manusia menghirupnya. Pada aku lah, orang yang merokok kat tempat awam sampai menimbulkan ketidakselesaan orang lain, dia dah ambil hak orang lain untuk menghirup udara segar kurniaan yang Maha Esa. Aku x berani lah nk jatuhkan hukum tp yang pastinya perbuatan itu x baik disisi agama.
Kat UK tu, diorg tu bukan Islam pun. Tapi diorang faham and dapat grab yang kita ni hidup dibawah langit yang sama. Sangat tidak adil diorg merokok, dpt melepaskan ketagihan mereka but at the expense orang lain terpaksa hirup udara kotor. Diorg bukan islam tp ada nilai2 akhlak islam dalam diri mereka. Subhanallah. :) semoga mereka diberikan hidayah.

Safety
Kat Malaysia, sgt bahaya kalau kita jalan sorang2 malam. Nanti ada peragut la, penyamun la, simbah asid la. Tapi kat UK, cuak tu cuak gak la, tp aku still rasa selamat kalau balik 1am or 2am dari library ke rumah.

Road bullies lak mmg obvious Malaysian drivers champion. Meby kalau x bawak laju, x langgar lampu merah, bagi signal, bukan Malaysian drivers namanya. Semuanya berasal dari sikap x sabar ketika berada di jalan raya. Padahal dari skolah dah kenal quote ni "sabar itu sebahagian dari iman". tapi semua lalu kt telinga je. X sampai kat hati.

Newspaper
Newspaper kt UK, kebanyakkan berita adalah mengenai ekonomi negara, pembangunan dan masalah2 rakyat. Kat Malaysia lak, rata-rata boleh tau ape yang dipaparkan. Kalau paper tu ada 20 page, 80% isu politik kotor, hentam sana sini, sumbangan kerajaan (akhbar perdana), sumbangan pembangkang (akhbar tabloid) dan lain lain.
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Aku bukan lah nak claim yang negara luar tu 100% bagus. Diorg ada jugak corruption, crime, kacau periuk nasi orang lain etc., Tapi masalah2 ni x obvious mcm kat Malaysia, sehingga menimbulkan ketidakselesaan rakyat. For me, Malaysia is physically aman, tp tidak harmony. Most of people (not all) ada hatred to each other. X boleh tgk orang lain sng sket, ada je hasad dengki, nak curi hak orang lain la, tutup periuk nasi orang lain.

Pada aku, root sebenar masalah ini adalah hati yang kotor. Masakan tidak,

Kalau hati kita bersih, kita akan percaya yang rezeki ini nikmat Allah kepada hamba2Nya yang dia kehendaki. Allah dah janji, siapa usaha lebih, dengan cara yang halal, ada ganjarannya.

Kalau hati kita bersih, kita akan sedar yang merokok di tempat awam bukan sekadar melanggar peraturan dunia, malah mengambil hak udara segar orang lain. Dan setahu aku, perbuatan ini dilaknati Allah.

Kalau hati kita bersih, kita akan bekerja dengan bersungguh-sungguh. Xdela time layan customer, muka masam bagai nak rak. Confirm ke kita dengan kesucian dan kebersihan gaji yang kita dapat kalau time kerja kita buat sambil lewa?

Kalau hati kita bersih, kita tau yang meragut, merompak, menyamun, merogol, simbah asid tu sume perbuatan keji.

Kalau hati kita bersih, instead of mengata orang, kita akan mendoakannya agar diberikan petunjuk sepanjang perjalanan hidupnya. Hidayah tu milik Allah. Allah boleh bagi pada sesiapa sahaja dan jangan lupa, Allah boleh tarik anytime He wants. Nauzubillah.
Dari Ibnu Rawaahah kepada Abu Dardaa' : "Sesungguhnya, hati lebih cepat berbolak balik dari isi periuk yang sedang menggelegak."

Kalau hati kita bersih, kat jalan raya, kita akan bersabar dan sentiasa mematuhi peraturan yang ditetapkan.

Mungkin orang akan cakap, "hekeleh mamat ni, baru 2 tahun kt overseas, dah ckp mcm2 pasal negara sendiri." Tapi, this is why kenapa aku setuju dengan nasihat artis dalam radio yang aku cerita pada awal td.

Dan buat pelajar-pelajar luar negara, lepas abis study tu, kalau hangpa suma kerja kat overseas, atas alasan Malaysia x best atas sebab2 yang aku nyatakan td, hangpa suma selfish. Baliklah. Pulanglah ke tanah air. Kita dah belajar ketamadunan manusia di negara maju. TIba masa kita contribute kepada orang ramai. Betulkan apa yang tidak betul.

DONE. Wallahualam.

Pembelai Emosi Masyarakat Melayu

2011-06-07T18:16:00.000+08:00

Dalam adik-beradik aku, aku sorg je lelaki. memang lumrah kaum wanita, suka tengok drama melayu. so bila majoriti dalam rumah adalah kaum wanita, drama melayu memonopoli televisyen berbanding perlawanan bola sepak. so aku pun dah agak terbiasa menonton drama-drama melayu TV malaysia. ada yang not bad, ada yang meleret2.

and sekarang kat malaysia, masih lagi seperti itu. terlalu banyak lambakan melodrama yang disajikan di televisyen. kat Malaysia sekarang, ada satu drama ni yang agak hangat sambutannya, sampaikan kt FB banyak sgt fanpage drama ni diwujudkan dan bila baca komen2 dalam tu, mmg nampak la drama ni menjadi kegilaan ramai. kiranya ala2 macam zaman Nur Kasih and Adamaya dulu lah. so since aku pun baru abis exam semalam, aku pun try la tgk drama ni kat Youtube.

mcm biasa lah, melodrama melayu banyak main ngan emosi dan perasaan. pertengahan jalan ketika menonton drama tersebut, satu soalan tercetus dalam benak fikiran aku.

adakah drama melayu menzahirkan realiti sebenar kehidupan masyarakat melayu atau masyarakat melayu terlalu terpengaruh dengan melodrama tersebut sehingga menzahirkan apa yang ada di TV ke realiti kehidupan sebenar?

from my observation, dalam kesemua drama-drama melayu, lebih banyak yang meruntun perasaan daripada yang menjana minda. tidak dinafikan ada drama-drama melayu yang baik, tetapi majoritinya lebih kepada mainan perasaan dan emosi.

fine, xpelah. itu kreativiti penulis skrip. mungkin penulis skrip yang ingin membuat drama atau filem yang menjana minda ada, cuma tiada penerbit yang mahu menerbitkan atas alasan cerita sebegitu akan kurang mendapat sambutan kerana peminat lebih suka drama/filem yang membelai emosi mereka.

tapi bayangkan lah eh, audience yang menonton drama-drama ni kebanyakkannya suri rumah, nenek-nenek di kampung, pesara-pesara tetap dan pelajar-pelajar sekolah. wanita-wanita berkerjaya mungkin tiada masa untuk menonton disebabkan kekangan waktu pekerjaan (drama melayu series slalu ditayangkan petang2). audiens2 yang aku sebut tadi, mereka ni kebanyakkannya hanya menjadikan TV untuk mengetahui perkembangan dunia luar. akses mereka untuk menerima perkara-perkara ilmiah sangat terhad. kalau yang celik IT, mungkin tiada masalah sebab mereka mampu untuk mencari bahan bacaan ilmiah di internet. tapi untuk yang tidak celik IT, drama-drama inilah sajian mereka seharian.

the point yang aku nak sampaikan is, perkembangan minda mereka terhad apabila menonton drama-drama sebegini rupa. emosi dan perasaan mereka terlalu dibelai-belai sehingga mereka lupa diluar sana, jutaan lagi masalah dan realiti kehidupan sebenar perlu ditangani bersama. masyarakat Melayu terlalu disuap dengan masalah-masalah seperti hasad dengki, mengumpat, rampas tunang orang, tutup periuk nasi orang lain etc. Mesej-mesej sebegini yang terdapat dalam lambakan melodrama melayu. Tidak dinafikan mesej-mesej sebegini bagus tapi ruang lingkupnya sangat terhad dengan kehidupan masyarakat setempat sahaja. Sedangkang dunia pada hari ini mempunyai masalah yang lebih dari itu.

Berapa ramai anak muda Malaysia yang tahu masalah Palestine? Berapa ramai anak muda Malaysia yang tahu masalah ekonomi dunia? Berapa ramai di antara mereka yang tahu apa maksud Hari Nakhba? Berapa ramai anak muda yang tahu isu Perkasa dan Utusan?

Bandingkan pula dengan bilangan anak muda yang tahu perkembangan semasa Lisa Surihani? Perkembangan semasa AF 9? Siapa yang terkeluar pada Maharaja Lawak minggu ini?

Bukan salah untuk berhibur, namun biarlah mencari hiburan yang sesuai dan seimbangkan dengan bahan-bahan ilmiah selain daripada buku-buku pelajaran yang sememangnya wajib dibaca itu. Dan kepada penerbit-penerbit drama dan filem-filem melayu, sajian anda sudah jauh ketinggalan. Masyarakat Melayu sudah muak dengan mesej drama/filem berkaitan dengan hasad dengki, tamak etc. Sampai masa untuk mendidik masyarakat dengan cerita-cerita yang mampu membawa audiens ke satu tahap pemikiran yang lebih pintar.

koyak + happy = lg sedap dari rojak

2011-05-29T00:15:00.000+08:00

ramai orang tau camne feel die kalau kita happy

ramai jugak tau ape yg kita akan rasa kalau kita tgh koyak

but could you describe me a situation where koyak n happy co-exist each other?

i just experienced it. like really, just now. :)

note to myself > let's prepare. no matter how long more it will be ;) coz it's in His will and not in our hands. like, totally.

building a house in heaven

2011-05-18T16:13:00.001+08:00

kahwin?

that's quite a common word in my stage of life right now. once in a while, my fren would bring this matter up, either for fun or in a serious tone. everybody keen to tease each other about this. i see this as a form of encouragement. yea, benda baik, kalau dah ready, buat ape tunggu lama-lama kan? :)

but the issue here, dah ready ke belum? well yea..if we want to wait for ourselves to be 100% ready, then we would never get married til we die. simply coz we dont know the right indicator on how "ready" we are. but for the very least, we have to get ready. physically and material, it's not that hard though. lambat laun duit tu cukup jgk insyaAllah.

what more important here, is spiritually. marriage is not just about two people living together, have some kids, work everyday and meet at the evening. go to the park every sunday morning to have some breeze walk with kids and spend good quality time. marriage is about paving a way to jannah. the moment you say "aku terima nikahnya..." you'll get pahala. anything you do with your wife (as long as according to sharia), you'll get pahala. you raise up your kids, mould them to be a good muslim n muslimah, there are lots lots lots of pahala waiting for you. and eventually, if everything goes on track, the whole family would enter jannah.

sounds nice? yes it is..but are we ready to lead the way to that? this question is not only for the bride-groom-to-be but also to his companion. both husband and wife would have to prepare themselves at least to show a good qudwah to their kids. so that their kids would grow up in a protected islamic surroundings. world today is filled with many people, showing good and bad example. parents would be the one responsible to tell them, which one should they choose to follow.

let's prepare ourselves, building our house in jannah. =)

tangga kejayaan

2011-05-17T18:38:00.000+08:00

b4 fly dlu, ramai ckp "ko amik actuarial science? its gonna be hard".

skang aku nk ckp blk diorg, diorg yg ptut amik course ni.

sbb?

sbb korg leh predict, in fact prediction tu sgt tepat.

thx kawan2, kerana jujur ngn aku dulu2

kalo cmtu, sume org ade bakat jd actuary

sbb basic concept die "prediction". sume org leh predict.

"eh, langit gelap ni, jap lg mesti hujan"

"anak kak kiah tu skolah MRSM Jasin. for sure nnt fly pny lah"

"mail lambung tu jahat. mmg susah nk berubah"

tp korg kene igt, prediction ni manusia je yg buat. bukan Allah.

"actuarial science ni mmg la susah wan. tp kalau kau rajin study, insyaAllah Allah bantu kau senangkan course ni.tp kene la ikut ckp Dia dlu."

"Mail, hidayah tu milik Allah. kau kalau nk jd baik, kene usaha sket. Allah nk bg nnt anytime je. xdehal"

baby step

2011-05-06T15:21:00.000+08:00

kita jahat.

kita mungkin dah ckup baik, tp aurat kita belum sempurna

kita mungkin dah tutup aurat, tp solat kita selalu lambat

kita mungkin dah solat awal waktu, tp Quran selalu tinggal

kita mungkin dah selalu baca Quran, tp kita x faham

kita mungkin dah faham, tp kita x sampaikan

jatuh

2011-02-21T21:14:00.002+08:00

down.

bertubi2.

xpe.

aku bangun sendiri.

aku belum penat.

Permata

2011-02-21T09:26:00.007+08:00

hatiku berdegup laju

persis ombak menderu

persis angin berhembus

persis unggas bersahutan

ku terus berlari

dan berlari.....

demi permata yang hakiki

namun kadang kala ku terjatuh

menyalahkan sang batu yang hanya terdiam kaku

ku harapkan batu membantuku

namun tanpa ku sedari

aku tidak pernah memberi kepada sang batu

sang batu tidak pernah meminta

sang batu tidak pernah merungut

sang batu hanya melutut, menurut

biarkan batu itu!

teruskan berlari!

kegelapan sanubari membutakan pandanganku

yang ku mahu hanyalah kilauan permata

aku berlari

dan terus berlari..

namun,

deruan angin seakan memanggilku untuk menoleh

menghancurkan segunung ego yang beraja di hati

ku menoleh

dan kalbuku melihat

batu yang ku hina, ku caci

rupanya adalah permata yang hakiki

T.o.R.n

2010-10-15T07:05:00.008+08:00

Pagi ini aku bangun jam 6.30 pagi. Usai solat subuh, aku membuat beberapa panggilan, dan kemudian terus aku menyambar buku Financial Maths kepunyaan Taf untuk aku menelaah. Kira-kira satu jam setengah aku membelek-belek formula yang amat sukar difahami, perut mula menginginkan perhatian. Ku turun ke dapur lalu memotong 2 batang pisang menjadi ketulan-ketulan kecil dan ku masukkan ke dalam cawan yang tiga suku penuh dengan fresh milk. Banana cereal, sajian breakfast yang ku cipta sendiri memang menjadi kegemaranku. Hidup di bumi UK tanpa kehadiran nasi lemak, roti canai atau cucur udang di waktu pagi memaksa diri ini menjadi lebih kreatif mencipta makanan baru untuk mengubat hati. Ku masukkan segenggam cereal ke dalam mug lalu ku alas perutku seadanya sambil menonton perlawanan badminton Commonwealth Games antara England dan Malaysia. Malaysia menang emas pada perlawanan itu. Bangga sungguh hati kecilku menggetus.

Aku mula membancuh satu jug Teh O panas. “Untuk satu rumah sekali,” bisik hati kecilku.

Housemateku yang berwajah Iran, Taf, kebetulan demam pada malam sebelumnya. Menghirup secawan Teh O panas selepas bangun dari tidur pasti melegakan buatnya fikirku.

Tidak sampai 5 minit kemudian, housemateku Et keluar dari biliknya meluru ke dapur. Mungkin perutnya sama seperti ku juga, meronta-ronta ingin diberi perhatian. Manja sungguh sang perut. Et membakar dua keping roti. Aroma roti bakar sangat membangkitkan nafsuku untuk turut menjejak langkah Et membakar roti. Walaupun kadang kala muak dengan roti kerana hampir setiap meal (breakfast, lunch n dinner) menjamah roti, namun roti juga ku sambar kali ini. Nasib pelajar merantau, tiada banyak pilihan makanan. Malaysia boleh ku ibaratkan syurga makanan dunia. Teringat bazaar ramadhan yang ku lewati pada cuti summer lepas.

Jam 11.00 pagi, setelah mandi dan berdandan menggunakan perfume DKNY Red Delicious yang ku beli di eBay tempoh hari, aku terus keluar dari rumah, berjihad. Kelas pertamaku pada hari ini adalah di bangunan Engineering Sciences. Kelas kedua ku pula di bangunan Electrical and Electronic, agak hampir dengan rumahku.

Dalam kelas yang kedua, di kala itu, jam menunjukkan pukul 1.15 tgh hari. Kelas tersebut akan berakhir jam 2 petang. Dugaan besar menjelma. Fokusku terhadap Dr. Makris Miltos sangat hambar. Walaupun lagaknya seakan Steve Jobs, pengasas produk Apple, aku tetap tidak tertarik untuk mendengar hujahnya mengenai Pareto Efficiency pada hari ini. Mata ku berat. Perutku lapar. Sudah beberapa kali kepala ini mematuk angin kerana terlalu mengantuk. Tika tersedar, aku mula membayangkan sepaket pasta segera yang ku beli di Asda Hypermarket Jumaat lepas. Packagingnya yang menggiurkan dengan gambar semangkuk pasta yang sangat creamy dan cheesy dihadapannya mengkhayalkan aku. Baru ku sedar sudah lebih 5 jam perutku dibiarkan tanpa perhatian.

Habis sahaja kelas, aku meluru ke Library untuk memulangkan buku yang ku pinjam. Setelah library, rumah ku menjadi destinasi pilihan. Aku meluru ke dapur dan mencari paket pasta segara yang sejak dari tadi bermain-main difikiranku. Tanpa berfikir banyak, aku mengikut instruction masakan di belakang paket tersebut. Setiap arahan dituruti dengan patuh sekali.

Susu, done.

Air sejuk, done.

Pasta segera, done.

Sausages? Eh, sedap jugak kalau tambah sket. Potong la 2 batang buat tambah rencah.

Sausages, done.

Semuanya ku masukkan dalam periuk aluminium buatan Itali yang mungkin disedekahkan oleh postgrad yang sudah pulang ke Malaysia tempoh hari. Paket pasta tadi ku buang terus ke dalam tong sampah recycle yang disediakan. Pujian selayaknya kepada warga Britain kerana kesedaran yang amat tinggi terhadap alam sekitar sehinggakan tong sampah untuk barang-barang kitar semula disediakan di setiap rumah.

Kacauan perlahan aku kenakan kepada campuran pasta itu tadi. Aromanya naik ke udara sejuk rumahku yang pada firasatku berada pada suhu sekitar 10-12 darjah celcius. Luar biasa sejuknya hari ini. Pinggangku terasa lenguh mungkin kerana banyak menggigil. Setelah 5 minit mengacau, aku mula berasa pelik. Aromanya seakan bau kiub pati ayam yang biasa kami gunakan untuk memasak. Pada mulanya, ku sangkakan itu hanyalah bau campuran rempah dan bahan perasanya. Tapi rasa was-was ku kian memuncak. Ku ambil kembali paket pasta segara itu yang telah aku buangkan ke dalam tong sampah recycle.

PASTA WITH CHICKEN AND MUSHROOM

Owh..meronta-ronta jiwaku melihat perkataan chicken pada paket tersebut. Di saat perut yang sangat lapar, menginginkan suatu yang sangat menyelerakan di hadapan mata itu, akhirnya nafsu terpaksa ditundukkan buat seketika.

“Macam mana boleh tersilap ni. Takkan la x nampak perkataan “chicken” kat situ. Sah-sah la haram,” rungut hatiku kepada kekhilafan diri sendiri.

Setelah aku buangkan semua pasta dalam periuk Itali tersebut, aku kembali kepada makanan normalku di UK. ROTI.

Malam ni giliran aku masak. Nasi ayam menjadi pilihanku. Semoga terubat rindu kepada tanah air.

p/s : aku yakin nasi ayam aku halal sebab aku beli dekat kedai ayam halal. owh, btw, housemate2ku cakap, sambal nasi ayam aku sedap =D ~*puas*~

Sorry

2010-10-01T06:43:00.003+08:00

"Wan, aku rase ciri-ciri feminisme dalam diri kau ni tinggi lah."

Sorry..

I know I am highly sensitive..

Always paranoid with sumthg dat I shudn't..

Sorry..

I know i am expressive..

Always neglect your feelings in expressing my sorrow towards wut you've done..

Eventhough the thing you did is not even close to be called wrong..

Sorry..

I know i feel a bit insecure..

I promised to recover..

But deep inside im still suffering..

The scar is there..and every time i look at it, it bleeds..

Sorry..

I know i am selfish..

Never been satisfied with your attention..

Craving for more n more...

I hate myself everytime you cry..

I hate myself everytime you sigh..

I hate myself everytime your guilt is high..

"Wan, patience is sweet..it is..sabar sket eyh..." =)

Aidilfitri ; More Than A Day of Celebration

2010-09-21T09:45:00.001+08:00

i never done this..but this entry is eyes opening..so i decided to post it on my blog..enjoy reading it..may it be beneficial for you..

*this entry is quoted from http://missizyan.blogspot.com

funny aint it?

at 20, and im just barely understanding the true meaning of 'idul Fitr'.

kembali kepada fitrah

is it because of my ignorance?

that only now im trying to understand this special day.

or should i blame my family or my surroundings instead?

truth is, pointing fingers leads me to nowhere.

instead i should be thankful,

that at 20,

Allah gave this chance for me to think.

instead of 30.

instead of 40.

instead of never.

one fateful day,

it was from a radio show,

an ustaz started his talk with defining the words of 'idul Fitr'.

i wasn't able to listen to the whole show,

cant remember why.

but the definition was stuck in my tiny brain.

'seriously, ive never thought of that.'

the last few days,

i've been so occupied by this.

kembali kepada fitrah.

so the day is supposed to be a 'celebration' of that.

but the question is, have i?

kembali kepada fitrah.

did i use all the chances Ramadhan has to offer?

untuk kembali kepada fitrah?

this Ramadhan...

have i struggled and prepared myself for Lailatul Qadr,

instead of just waiting for it?

have i finished reciting Quran,

just because it's something i do every Ramadhan,

instead of hoping that Allah makes the bond with this Holy Quran stronger?

Have i performed tarawikh,

just because it's embarrassing not to do so,

instead of realizing that this solat sunat

is only done specifically and specially in this holy month?

Have i eaten for sahur everyday,

just to fill my empty tummy,

instead of understanding the barakah behind it?

Have i woken up for Qiam,

just because i had extra time before sahur,

instead of really having faith in Allah's words,

that Qiam really strengthens your iman?

have i...have i.. have you yan?

i kept questioning myself over and over again.

kembali kepada fitrah.

how i wish i am there.

how i wish i'd managed to do the most i can,

in this Holy month of Ramadhan.

how i wish, that im eligible to celebrate Idul Fitr,

with it's true meaning.

still, it's a happy occasion that one should cherish

and be thankful for.

we're back in the real game now.

if we managed to tame our hawa nafsu,

then insyaAllah we'll manage to fight off all the Red Army,

for the next 11 months.

insyaAllah...

alright. this is just me retrospecting in public.

edisi ke berapa tak pasti.

whatever it is,

saya nak minta maaf,

to all my friends and fellow readers.

for any words that might have hurt you.

wallahua'lam.

im a mere human being, bound to make mistakes.

im here just to write and share my insignificant experiences.

with the hope that they may benefit those who willingly visit this blog.

and as for now, we still have a few hours of Ramadhan left.
(some still have a day left)

i've heard of a quote somewhere:

"jangan Syawalkan akhir Ramadhan"

for all we know, all the offers stand still.

the Red Army are still tied,

the Doors of Heaven are still opened,

the barakah is still there.

let's just grab whatever we can.

while Allah is giving the chance.

and pray that, on that fateful Idul Fitr,

we are in the groups of people who had;

"kembali kepada fitrah"

wallahua'lam.

Salam Aidilfitri

Maaf Zahir & Batin.

seriously.

i mean it.

mintak maaaaaaf sgt2 eit? ;)

Kenapa Lelaki X Boleh Obses Main Game

2010-09-19T23:28:00.003+08:00

Zaman Sekolah

*kalau asyik sgt main game, nanti kerja sekolah x siap. kecik ati guru

*mak suruh g kedai g beli bawang merah, kite x asik ckp, "nanti mak,nk abiskan 1 level je lg ni,"..end up mak g kedai beli sendri..dah kecik ati mak

*ayah ajak g solat mgrb jemaah kt surau, kite asik ckp "ayah g dulu la eyh..sket lg ni,"...kecik ati ayah..

p/s : kata gamer, "ala..biasa la tu..bdk2 main game..x remaja ar x main game weyh"

Zaman University

* zaman ni, nk main game smpai subuh pn, xde sape nak marah..mak ayah jauh..

* tapi, kalau kite main game smpai x tdo malam, portfolio math mungkin x bole disiapkan by the deadline..kecik ati cikgu stats kite yang bernama Mr. Badarudin tu...dah x berkat study kite..terpaksa la tercari2 cikgu time majlis restu b4 exam..time tu br myesal..tp konfem buat lg punye..
* main game ngn member2 smpai tgh malam, abis bising mcm nak pecah bilik member..rupe-rupenye, kat bilik sebelah ade member nk study...dah terganggu member tu..time tu kalau member tu doa, sure makbul punye la..yela, doa orang teraniaya kan makbul..isy2..abis la korg...nasib baik member sebelah tu baik, x doa supaya korg gagal exam..kalau x, mmg la rsnye x dpt ijazah...

p/s : kata gamer, "lek lek luuuuu....zaman tgh study ni la nk enjoy..kang dh keje, busy...x sempat pn nk main game nih"

Zaman Bekerja

* time ni syok sket, duit dah ada..leh la beli console yg mahal2 sket kan..tp bile kite main game smpai tgh malam, esk pagi time kerja, mengantuk..kerja pn sure careless punye..cmne boss nk sayang? cmne nak naik gaji? cmne nak kumpul duit utk kawin? kate beriya nak meminang anak mak cik sarah tahun depan, tp saving masih lg kurang drpd saving adik bongsu sendri dalam tabung haji die..bile la plak nak kawin..sian anak dara makcik sarah, setia je tunggu boyfren die padahal boyfren die sendri xde inisiatif nak usaha kumpul duit utk masa depan diorg..

p/s : kata gamer, "ala...tension la kerja..main game ni nk release tension laaa..lgpn kang dh kawin, sure leh stop punye addiction kat game ni..skrg ni bg puas2 dulu"

Zaman Berumahtangga (xde anak)

* time ni, hidup berumahtangga sure manis je..yela..hidup berdua je..mmg sweet shj la sentiasa...tp bile kite asik main game je, isteri x kecik ati ke? okay, kite tgk...

*isteri kite kerja..balik kerja sure kene masak utk suami..then pas masak, kemas2 pinggan sume..sambung lg ngn laundry..basuh, sidai...suami? sibuk abiskan main game warcraft sebab x complete lg mission..time baru2 kawin mmg la isteri x ksah..tp kawin bukan sehari dua, kawin sampai mati kot..melainkan isteri die tu Asimo, for sure la isteri tu panas gak..dh cm org gaji lak..

* isteri kite tu perempuan..hati lembut..inginkan belaian dan kasih sayang..tolongla hargai..jgn la hargai game tu je..x kemane la level game tu kalau x up pn...isteri lg penting..

p/s : kata gamer, "aku raja kot..isteri tugasnya uruskan rumahtangga..so pandai2 die la.."

Zaman Berumanhtangga (ada anak)

* selain kerja2 di atas tu, isteri kene basuh btol susu anak, mandikan, tidurkan, tukar lampin..n suaminya, still main game..ni siyes isteri dh jd bibik kt rumah sendri..rumahtangga tu perkongsian hidup..so, kerja2 dan tanggungjawab tu kene la kongsi jugak..same2 la bantu besarkan anak..ni pandai buat je anak tp x pandai nk tolong isteri jage anak sbb addicted ngn main game tu..mane x kes cerai berai berleluasa..sebab suami x pandai nk faham tugas dan tanggungjawab sebagai suami..

*bile anak dh besar sikit, kalau asik main game sorg2 je, anak cmne? anak for sure merengek2 mintak perhatian..nak dilayan dan dimanja..ni kalau anak kite mintak teman g playground, kite reply "ala...g la sendri..main leklok ye..papa ade keje sket ni.."...atoiyaiii...kan sweet kalau g teman anak tu main buaian, gelongsor kat taman...anak kite tu dpt la rase belaian kasih sayang dan perhatian papa die..ni kalau anak main sorg2 kt taman, kang kene culik, dh satu hal lak...puncanya, kurangnye perhatian mak bapak..n then, kalau anak dh besar nnt ada masalah sosial, kang salahkan cikgu, ckp cikgu x didik anak die ngn betul..padahal die yang leka ngn anak sendri...kalau anak kantoi merokok, langgar disiplin, tau malu..then bantai anak ngn tali pinggang...

p/s one : nak main game bole, tp jgn smpai abaikan tanggungjawab kite yang lebih utama..terutamanya tanggungjawab kat Tuhan..*peace*

I'm Back =)

2010-09-07T16:17:00.006+08:00

fuhh..after almost a year leaving this rusty blog, finally she's back with the fresh looked! sawang dh sangat banyak kt blog ni. mcm bersihkan rumah untuk raya pulak. neway, let's get back to wut i used to do almost a year ago. BLO[GG]ING. yeah..u read it right peeps..;)

i'll try my best to contribute through my blog, to share what i think i shud share with the people around me..thanx for those who dropped by but only to read creepy old posts that hasn't been updated for too long!

i dont have a certain type of writings. i just write randomly. sometimes it might be beneficial to you but sometimes it wud just be another crappy post by me. so bear with me for those who intend to but u can just jump to other blog if you think [I.am.One] wudn't make any difference to your life.

hope to start very soon...till then, selamat menjalani hari-hari terakhir ibadah puasa dan selamat hari raya aidilfitri, maaf zahir dan batin..[in case i dont have any post before raya =p ]

p/s : jgn biarkan hari anda pergi tanpa sebarang ibadah sunat untuk bekalan akhirat anda

renaissance of a blogger

2009-12-12T05:20:00.007+08:00

hey there...=)...its been a while since my last entry...a long long time ago...my last entry was posted on the very first days of my arrival in UK and i have been here safe n sound for almost 3 months! i dont wanna give lame excuses saying that i am too bz to post anythg here simply because the life here is pretty relaxing! i just dont have the mood top write..but few mins before i started writing this, i read few blogs of my fren... most of them keep updating their blog by writing about what they have been doing in negara org and stuffs...it strike my mind with this.."aku kat UK 3 tahun je...xkn la aku nk simpan kenangan aku kat UK ni dlm FB je?"..with that simple thought i become so inspired to starting writing this...yea...this WORD!

Ok..life here is southampton has been pretty smooth...it is just a simple city, without any tourist attraction at all..seriosly, to all my frens, if u wanna come to soton, dont u ever dream to sightseeing, but do come here because of SOTONIANS as we will make ur days here worthy! haha...not to say that we are enjoying our life so much here but we are doing fine so far..alhamdulillah...=)

since my arrival here, one thing that i am proud is of course my cooking skills...haha...thx to our desperation to cook once a week! up to this date, i have cooked ayam masak kurma, soto, all sorts of nasi goreng, chicken stew, bolognese, ayam masak black pepper and mee hoon singapore...cooking is enjoyable for me and it is not really difficult..as long as u have the guts to cook, you will be fine....;)

me in action!

chicken stew!

ayam masak merah + ikn bilis masak kicap n telur dadar

classes have been quite bumpy but i did enjoy myself in class..lectures, turorials, presentation, group discussion, assignments...all of them make myself become a wiser person by now...i did form a discussion group for my ECONs module with matt(english),moid(pakistani) and tafzani (malaysian). we are doing great..the discussions had been very active with evryone contributing their own brilliant ideas..working with non-malaysian really open up ur mind coz they can see what we typical malaysian oversee..they really ambitious and have a very clear idea and dream ahead of them...here is a picture of us..

from left : matt, moid and me

i also form a group for my DEMOGRAPHY presentation..me,together with taf and et pleasantly agreed to join Ling and Michele, 2 brilliant peeps from China to put our brains together for the presentation...we did very well for it and special thanx to Ling for cheering up our group with her bubbly jokes...haha...

Today is my last day of my autumn term and tomorrow is the 1st day of winter holiday! happy holiday peeps! and i am going to Spain this tuesday! hahaha...the route will consist of LONDON-BARCELONA-GRANADA-CORDOBA-MADRID-LONDON....pray for our safe and smooth journey and do wait for lotsa pics to be uploaded...!

owh yea..btw, my other half is enjoying her days so much in States...she is there for her university's academic visit..she was selected for the trip and im pretty sure it is because of her very well performance in studies...alhamdulillah..im very2 proud of her...=)...it seems that her tears at the very first time when she knew that she was accepted to do a course that she never applied at a university that she never thought of has turn into a joyful tears...Allah knows evrythg and absolutely the best for us...to you dear,cepat2la blk malaysia ye... =)

lastly, just to remind you guys that this blog is still alive! haha..adios...;)

a new life.a new hope.but i am still me

2009-10-05T23:37:00.013+08:00

wow...it's been a while i haven't updated my old creepy blog..i believe if my blog is a house,there must be a lot of satans n evils living in it ryte now..(rumah kan xleh tgl lame..nnt setan masuk...hehe...)..so peeps, I'm at a new place ryte now...swaythling,southampton....yea..u read it right..=)...i arrived here on breezy morning of 29 september 2009...its kinda a memorable date..290909...let the pics below tell evrything..

with my family at KLIA...miss them soo much....<3

my sistas...

shivering in the flight

touchdown at heathrow,london

first taste of london air

there were some pics upon my arrival at heathrow,london airport..people malaysia and some of my frens in UK asked me, "how's soton?"..well...for me, its too early to comment on that....soton is nothing much compared to london or any other beautiful cities...its just a small town and certainly not a tourist attraction...like any other western cities,people here love to socializing,clubbing,drinking and what not..u name it...but that's only at night..during the day,they are nice...seldomly u can here drivers honking their cars...if u about to enter a room and there is a person in front of u,he will certainly hold the door for you...the politely of locals here were certainly respected..no doubt..

hurmm..but to be honest, my heart is still standing stiffly at malaysia...i miss malaysia soo much eventhough i am just a week here..i miss malaysian foods,hotness,sweat,the people itself and so much more..the weather here is in its mild cold (well,locals say it mild cold but for me,its real cold! cakap pn berasap ok....) its quite unpredictable with drizzles in the morning and suddenly bright sunshine in the afternoon...sweating in UK is very awkward...i can walk 30mins without sweating at all...huhu....how can be slimmer with a bad eating habit due to the coldness and lack of sweat...:(....

cooking has become my routine nowadays...now i knw how hard cooking can be..i thought i am prepared enough to eat my own cook but it is far way tasteless than my mom's...teringat lauk2 yang mak masak eventhough kat umah xdela makan grand mane pn tp cukup rase sume la...kat sini, plg grand penah housemate masak is nasi putih with ayam masak kurma...at least kat uma ade sayur sket,ayam sket,ikan sket..huhu...xpe...tahan2...next summer adalah mase untuk menggemokkan diri...sabar2....

i had my first class today...to conclude it all,they were a great start 4 me...n hoping for it to be continously fine and smooth..insyaAllah...

tgh jalan nk g 1st kelas...drizzles..sejuk gle..

jakun main asap time cakap...tp x nmpk pn dlm pic..huhu

gmbr ni didedicated khas untuk kak long n abg faizul...hehe..ni kat carboot..:)

gmbr ni plak utk baby dlm prot kak long...jgn jeles...ekekeke...blom lahir dh kene buli ngn acu..hehe...=P

hurmm...these are the faces that i miss so much ryte now...

my family...<3

my niece...huhu....rindu gle kt bdk kecik ni!...:(

n of course my baby boo...:-*

my adoreable sweetheart...<3

and my love....love her soo much...:)..:-*

alhamdulillah...hard work pays...

2009-07-07T07:05:00.002+08:00

6 july 2009 was a very long day in my life...it was d day dat i've been waiting so much...i did not necessary to be a bright day (or night..haha..) but i was still excited to wait for the moment of 6 july 2009...

i woke up as early as 540 a.m...
after performing my prayers, im still sleepy but i walked straight away to the tv set to watch MHI...my favourite breakfast show...

around 1030 am...
few people got their IB result already...they called their teachers n asked them bout it..my hands and feets shivered and cold...i dont know what to do...i wanted to knw the result so bad but am i ready to face any result?

around 1230pm...
amin got his result! so do andi...! both of them did a great great job! i asked amin,
wan : amin,ko tny sape? pn khuzaimi?
amin : aah..
wan : so bape ko dpt?
amin : 41
wan: gle gempak! so LSE la ko pasni...
amin : insyaAllah...
wan : andi pn da tau eh?
amin : aah..die dpt 40..hebat kan die?
wan : gle la korg..dua2 hebat! congratz amin!

other conversation,
wan : jang, cmne ni, nk tny cikgu ke x? kaki tangan aku dah seram sejuk ni...
jang : damn ar wan...tension aku cmni...i leave it to u la bro...
wan : nk tny jap lg la..cikgu ade meeting skrg...
jang : hurmmm...kiter tggu mlm je la bro...
wan : hurmm..ok gak...tny cikgu pn juz tau overall points je...subject points pntg gak to know we meet requirement or not

around 825pm,
miss aqyn : hello safwan!
wan : hye teacher! how are u?
M.A : im fine here..how are you?
wan : hahaha...im still waiting..dont tell me teacher!
M.A : are u sure u dont want me to tell u??
wan : i guess i still can wait for another 1 hour...=)....i heard dat u told andi bout his result...im so proud of him!
M.A : yea,i did! dont worry safwan...u r gonna b ok...u'll be as proud as him!
wan : thx teacher..definitely i'll call u later after i knew my result..
M.A : bye!

around 914,
i key in my personal code and PIN number...n after dat, i leave my lappy and went to my room...take a deep breath...grabbed my phone and start a stopwatch to count for 1 min...

after a min...
i went to my lappy again and i clicked "log IN"...
few seconds later...
i saw so many numbers...and started counting...at the same time, i scrolled down the page and saw that the total has been calculated for me...

total points : 40 =)

im so happy and couldnt be happier..! thanx so much to the people out there who always there for me when i need u..in sorrow and happy moments...without u guys, i will not be where i am today...special appreciations to all the dedicated teachers in the marvellous KOLEJ MARA BANTING who were not tired to teach us till the very last seconds to the exam hall...insyaAllah u guys will not be forgotten...
now i cant stop smiling and hopefully, this will be a good start for my new life in southampton few months ahead...

love you ayah! mmmwaaahhxx!

2009-06-22T11:41:00.002+08:00

i was born in a non-ordinary family....hugs and kisses, its just not us...maybe we dont know how to express our feelings but we do love each other...once again, i wanna stress here, WE DO LOVE EACH OTHER...i love my ayah,emak and all 3 sisters with their husband and kids...n i strongly believe that they love me so much too...hurmmm...but believe it or not,i never hug my dad or kiss him....maybe i did when i was a kid...but as far as i remember,i never do that....its not like i dont love him..but maybe dats my family...we dont know how to show our love to each other...EGO...maybe dats the word...and it's agreed but my kak long too...and plus, we were not tought by our parents to do so...to show our love thru hugs and kisses...we didn't practice that since we were kids...

but sumtimes kan, its not like i dont want to hug and kiss them...sumtimes, when i saw my frens hug their mom and dad everytime they visit their respective child during my days at kmb and mrsm jasin,i become so envious...siyes jeles gle ble tgk my fren dpt bnde2 cmtu but i never get such thing in my life...i wish my mom and dad are like dat...but even if let say, soon they are behaving like dat, no doubt its awkward! coz we are not used to do all the hugging and kissing thingy...sure plek la kalau ttbe my dad hug me....hurmmmm?????

and MAYBE...maybe la,because of they dont teach us to show our love directly, dats y the bond between me n my parents is not that strong....yea..we did laugh sumtimes but..it only happens especially when all of the family members are together...especially during hari raya...i love aidilfitri coz at that tyme,all my 3 sisters,bros in law,niece,me and my parents are together....:)....we would laugh,eat together and stuffs....i miss those moments so much...;(...

certainly, when i have a child, i will ensure that love is in the air of my family...i wanna be a good father and a best friend of all my children....i wish one day, i could HEAR my child says,"love u ayah! mmmwaaahhxx!"...:)...which i cannot afford to say today, but only to WRITE...but at least it's successfully delivered...eventhough the medium is different..:)

to ayah,
thx for everything...:)...love you ayah! mmmwaaahhxx!....:) i can never repay all your sacrifaction..you did a lot for me...seriously...but insyaAllah, i will try my best to make you proud of your only son..happy father's day!

a story to be ponder upon.....

2009-06-10T22:05:00.004+08:00

hurmmm....last week i started my work at usual place...it began with a task which is quite challenging yet sumtimes could be a bit boring...controlling a helicopter....it started very well...people came in and out....after few rides, there was sumthing happen....which enlighten my eyes and thoughts....

abg ET a.k.a one : ok ladies and gentlemen, please fasten your seat belt...sila pasangkan tali pinggang keselamatan anda ye.

adik comel : abg2....ni ade brg kat seat saye ni...

*adik comel pun memberikan saye barang itu....

abg ET a.k.a one : owh...ok...thanks adik...

* abg ET a.k.a one a.k.a me then quickly go to the control board and launch the helicopter ride...after that, i quickly examine the "brg" and found that it was an PSP....ermmm...its not pusat sumber pelajaran ye adik2, its portable playstation....looked like a new one coz it shines so well in black...then, i figured out that it must be the previous rider of the helicopter who left it accidentally in the heli....i ran to the next station, to ask the visitors bout the lost of belongings....

abg ET a.k.a one : emm...puan...puan ade tertinggal brg x kat heli td...?

*aunty tu dgn glabahnye check2 la brg die...then she shouted,

aunty : adik where did u put ur PSP?

*ank die ngn tersenyum2 straight away go to me to claim his PSP...

abg ET a.k.a one : r u sure this is yours?

boy : yup2....

abg ET a.k.a one : alrite...next tyme carefull k...

after i passed the PSP back to its owner, i ran back to my control board....n told my partner bout it...

abg ET a.k.a one : wei...td aku jmpe PSP kat dlm heli...br je pulangkan kat tuan die td...

partner : fuyooo...baik gle ko...kalau aku, aku dah rembat dah...

abg ET a.k.a one : ko penah amik brg yg visitor tgl ke?

partner : hurmmmm....slalu gak la....

abg ET a.k.a one : ape yg ko dah penah amik so far...?

partner : so far aku dah penah amik 5 biji handphone...kalau wallet aku x amik la..aku pulangkan...tp ade one time tu...time tu bulan pose...aku jumpe PDA...igt nk amik...tp cm bulan pose kan...cm xbes lak amik...

abg ET a.k.a one : x penah kantoi ke ngn sape?

partner : so far x lagi....aku br brangan2 nk pakai PSP....kalau aku jumpe td, for sure aku amik...agk2 sesak, aku jual la....tp besenye kalau aku jual, duit tu aku x wat bli mknn ar...aku bli bnde lain cam komik....etc...

*hurmmm.....i just pray the best for him, myself, my family, my future family and all my inheritance...hope dijauhkan from all the wrongdoings....amin~

p/s : my company strictly upholding the good ethics of its workers...any wrongdoings of anyone of us will be taken a firm action....

taggo tagged!

2009-06-08T13:57:00.005+08:00

hurmm.....i've been tagged! ahaha...slalunye malas nk layan tag2 ni...tp diz tyme since dah xde keje,just answer those easy pizy questions...hope u enjoy it...;)

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1. How old are you and are you single?

hurmmm...people say that i am much more matured than my age...is dat so?? hurmmm...wtv it is, im just 20...haha...

2. At what age do you think you'll get married?

InsyaAllah,several years from now...we plan, HE decides...lagi cepat, lagi bagus..:P

3. Do you think you'll be marrying

the person you're with now?

hurmmm...i am just trying my super duper very best to preserve what i have today...

4. If not, who do you want to marry with?

Her..the name which has been written before i was born...

5. Who would be your bridesmaid and best man?

actually,bridesmaid dah ade yg nk chup...tp kene tny my bride dulu la...hehe...my best man? hurmmm....sape2 pn xksah...:D

6. Do you want a garden / beach or traditional wedding?

garden would be great....but traditional sounds appreciating...hehe...mane2 pn bole....jnji sume lancar and selamat...:)

7. Where do you plan to go on honeymoon?

absolutely venice...for gondola riding...if not, any island in the world...

8. How many guests do you think you'll invite?
depends on my current profession dat tyme la...if i have a good profession, maybe leh je jemput ramai2....tp if cm baru2 je nak hidup ngn duit sendri, closest relatives and frens sudeyh...haha...

9. Will that include your ex-es?

depends

10. How many layers of cake do you want?
hurmmm...to be symbolic, maybe the layers of the cake is according to how many years we build oour relationship before we get married..

11. The time of day you wanna get married?

As earliest as dawn..so that we can fill every moment of the day with lots & lots of love & happiness..:D

12. Name the tune you'd like to play during the wedding.
~Thank God I Found You by Mariah Carey ft Boyz 2 Men~
~I do by 98dgrees~
~endless love by diana ross and lionel richie~

13. Fine dining or just normal fork and spoon dining?
I'll prepare everything..it's up to the guests to dine with their own comfortable ways..the choice is yours..! ;) air basuh tangan for sure ade!

14. Champagne or red wine?
uishhhh...gile ke....? mau kene perambat ngn mak, ayah, atok, nenek...hurmmm...i would ask my Uncle Rahim to teach me how to make a perfect BANDUNG SODA!

15. Honeymoon right after the wedding or

days after the wedding?
hurmmm....as soon as all the guests leave the hall, that's the beginning of our honeymoon till our last breath...

16. How many kids you'd like to have.
any number would do...as long as all of 'em are safely born and will grow up as soleh khalifah....

17. Would you record your honeymoon?

of course...but even if i wouldn't,it is still will be recorded...in my heart and my mind..;)

18. I wanna tag;
anyone who wants to do this...haha

recap of VADs...!

2009-06-08T10:50:00.011+08:00

hurmmm....normally, the boy name nur muhammad safwan will come here with overflowing ideas on what to write....but....not this time....i just feel like to write an entry but im totally have nothing in my mind....i just wanna write sumthing.....hurmmmm...meby the all-time favourite phrase "go with the flow" may be my best fren at least until the last sentence of this entry.... :)

hurmmm...supposedly, now im at sumwhere, hanging around with dina....but it was cancelled yesterday due to unavoidable thing....hurmmm.....i just cant understand myself la...why at the very first moment when i got a sudden bad news, i tend to be emotionally disturbed but actually, the so-called "bad news" was reasonable...i should understand the overall situation and should not think only about myself...it is not like She cancel the date because she loves to do so...there's a reason beneath it and it is REASONABLE! why cant i understand? but that's at the very first moment la...after a while,when the wave become calmer,when the congestion of neurons in my head has eased, everything become rational....i begin to see the problems clearly and accept it as the way it is...hurmmm...but meby that's the nature of human.....plus all the silent whispers from all the laknatullah, it just add more hatred in my heart....hurmmmm..to all people out there yg pernah terkena with my sudden emotionally disturbed, im truly deeply sorry of my wrongdoings...:(

our latest picture....after 4 months x jumpe...:)
LnMysMs....always have,always will :-*

okay! stop all the crappy jiwang thingy.....let's talk bout my new "home", petrosains...haha...supposedly, last saturday, my batch has efficiently planned to do our 2nd batch gathering at pengkalan balak, melaka....it has been planned for months but till the very last day, only 9 people has confirmed to join....out of 41 people in my batch...hurmmm....the plan was about to go on as usual but it was cancelled 2 days before the trip coz from the 9 people, 3 of them cancelled it....az has to put the priority to her family coz she has just become a MAK LANG! congratz az! hehe...while fathi and shuk has some family matters...eventhough at first tu i was like sedey jgk la coz im sooo looking forward for this trip but meby it is not our rezeki just yet to meet up and update all the stories....there's a blessing in disguise im sure..:)....
next monday, on 15 june 09, most probably, i'll join the most awaited event of the year, Volunteer Appreciation Day (VAD)....! ooooppsss....dat's maybe few years back...but not this year....the excitement to attend VAD was not as sparkling as previous year....this year, the budget has been cut....previous VAD was a great event! in 2007, we had it at the zone hotel....in the morning, there was a tresure hunt held at KLCC park and in the afternoon, all of us would boasting ourself with our own costume, according to the theme on that year, 50 years of Malaysia independence....it was such a happening,superb event....! still igt lg time tu, me n my batch has to present a sketch regarding kemerdekaan...i become a "bapak",hubby of elly who is the "emak"...we are the parents of KARIM, si sutun from UPNM...hehe...it was actually a "reverse" version of kasim selamat, a classic movie from P. Ramlee era...don't have to story more, let the pictures below do the talk...;)

my group tyme treasure hunt! kene blindfold...huhu

treasure hunt at KLCC park!

this is the scene where fatin (the who is kneeling) dah kene cucuk with her forks...hehe...from left is raja 'the karim', elly 'the emak' and me 'the bapak'...

time pengisytiharan kemerdekaan by "Tunku Abdul Rahman" a.k.a aiman...hahaha...

all the samseng kampung dusun!

in 2008, the theme was cartoon maniA! haha....we were 'forced' to wear any cartoon character costume and due to the blunderness of idea, i just wear the simplest MIB costume...haha...just put on my dad's suit and a sunglass...tadaaa! done...hehe..n my partner of the day is my cutey KIM POSSIBLE...! hehe...;)...as usual, there is a treasure hunt in the petrosains itself....it was still fun eventhough it is not held at the KLCC park as the previous year..

with my kim possible!

there were flinstone, spiderman and frens....haha...jabbawockeez pn ade??

the witches,darthvader,MIB and wolverine....where's kayla mr. logan?

hurmmm....2009? the theme is "that's 80's show"....hurmmm...but...since the company has reduced the budget for volunteers, including our working hours and events, this year's VAD won't promise any excitement i bet....the event is scheduled to start only at 3pm...there will be no running for treasure hunt whether inside or outside KLCC....no breakfast...just maybe HI-TEA and performances and awards giving ceremony....and it is scheduled to end at 6pm....wut do you expect? people,just dont expect much....and first thing first,i wont waste my money to prepare my costume....

ok then....it seems like the flow starts to overflowing....hehe...see?? sumtimes, ad-hoc work works!...we just don't need to plan....hurmmm...maybe we shud plan and it's good to plan our work...but eventually, HE will decide everything for us...just hoping the best for everyone...till then....have a good day everybody...take care...~

R.e.L.i.E.F is the word of the day...and at least for the next 1 month...:)

2009-06-01T22:37:00.004+08:00

Fuhh...!

what a relieve.... :) ...
first of all...i have done my fearest thing of the year...IB Exam of 2009...
it was fine alhamdulillah...eventhough some had caused my head to explode, but not to forget, some had made my day...:)....for now, not much dat i can do other than endless of prayers...

next relieving thing, i am proud to say that i am Malaysian....:)haha....i had finished my 5 days BTN camp at meru, klang....it was the most informative yet fun and vital course i have ever participate...

here are some interesting situation to be shared :

thursday, 28/5/09, 11.05 p.m

taf : wan, camne ek kiter nak pastikan ape yg kiter dpt kat btn ni, kite dapat sampaikan kat sume org kat luar tu?

safwan : uishh...susah tu taf....benda ni yg penting is delivery system...care kite smpaikan bnde ni...kalau salah care, x berkesan gak..

taf : betul...tp siyes bnde ni sgt pnting...

safwan : yup...especially utk org melayu....bape ramai sgt yg tau pasal betape pentingnye social contract tu kat org melayu? bile diorg xtau sejarah, mulelah pihak2 yg x bertanggungjawab tu wat tuntutan yg bukan2...pastu yg melayu yang x brape tau sejarah ni, gi sokong skali tuntutan diorg tu...padahal secara tak langsung, dia dah bunuh bangsa sendiri...aku pelik la...org melayu yang sokong tu bukan xde pendidikan...blajar tggi kot...tp nape la diorg wat cmtu kat bangse sendiri ek..?

taf : meby aku rase nih sebab ****** la...second thing sebab terlalu sgt nk *****...

~end~perbualan diakhiri kat depan surau...

seriously, that was the most crucial and serious conversation i have ever had through out my 20 years of life...i have never talked that kind of serious about my own race...my own country....but BTN had opened my eyes how important it is to preserve what we already have... it is our own rights....nobody should take it away from us!
people out there, do learn from history..before you support sumthing k...preserve what we already have today before it is taken away and you will never get it back...
insyaAllah, i will talk bout the content of BTN in my next next entry...:)

the last relieving thing...my sister's wedding was a success! alhamdulillah, at 853 a.m sharp, faridul atras is a official hubby of my dear sister, norsyafinaz azman....with sekali lafaz, their dream has come true....hope they will be together till the end of the day with beautiful n soleh kids...amin...~

so, what's next?
i just can't wait for my petrosains reunion trip diz saturday...cant wait to meet you guys....dah lame x gi holiday...huhu....wait for US k...hehe..=P...

tick...tock...tick....tock....

2009-05-14T15:43:00.002+08:00

13 papers, 5 subjects, 11 days are history....
some are roughs....
some are just sweet and gorgeous....
2 papers to go.....
9 days left....
i am counting days to taste a lick of life.......
absolutely any life other than IB life.....

however, IB has thought me a lot...
not only MALAY, ENGLISH, MATHEMATICS, ECONOMICS, BUSINESS STUDIES and not to forget, PHYSICS.....
IB has thought me more than that....
and i am proud to be one of it....

KMB will be my history......
a wonderful history....
eventhough it starts with a rough journey....
but it ends beautifully....
im gonna miss the people....
whose are truly HUMAN......
with care, love and tenderness....
thanx so much everyone.....
may ALLAH bless you all....

hopefully, with everything that i've learnt here....
will be very beneficial to be brought to my next destiny......
regardless of where would it be....

may JULY 2009 be the most happiest moment in my life.....
insyaAllah...=)

one word

2009-04-17T15:23:00.002+08:00

assignments??? done! homeworks??? what is that??? in my mind now is only have one word that worry me so much...it is not "exam"...it is not "test"...it is "DESTINY"....where is my destination after KMB? southampton,kent,heriot watt???? it is still uncertain and can be changed in a blink of eyes...n i know, i am capable of this obstacle..insyaAllah..

i can see the starting grid by now....but the finishing line is still far way to go...and i won't stop fighting in the battle till i cross the magical line....I WON'T..!

solte a' alma 2009

2009-03-09T13:17:00.003+08:00

TREMENDOUS...

~that's the best word to describe the feeling once i stepped down the stage after my performance on solte a'alma's nite...owh...fyi, me with other 11 superb friends had been training for more than a week to perform a bhangra dance on that nite..we dance 4 3 songs, including the awaited bhole chudiyan OST kabhi kushi kabhi gham...frankly speaking, i am just another "kayu" among the 12 boys who are not used to dance...but with all the hardwork and cooperation from all of us, we not only did it, but we did it excellently! the crowd had gone crazy thru out the 3 songs...honestly i had run out of breath after the 1st song but the positive response from the crowd make me stronger and spiritted to perform for them...plus, knowing that my beloved teacher is just in front of the stage with her family, i just wanna do my best! alhamdulillah...we won the 2nd place for dance category and a special award for "stage conquerer"....This SC award for me is the biggest award for the nite...i dont care about the 2nd place...what my concern was the crowd had enjoyed our show the most! ;)

~few seconds before i stepped on the stage

me : jang...gua nervous ni...siyes aku x penah nervous cmni...
jang : (ngn muke yg ala2 xtau nk ckp ape coz die pn sbnrnye nervous jgk..haha..)lek la wan...kiter njoy jek kat ats stage nnt...=D
me : njoy je la jang...bukan nk menang pn...
jang : btol2...

~ on the stage : jang was the one who were really high,toxicated like a crazy "zaita" during the performance...chet! haha...i was sinked with my nervousness under jang's crazynees, smoothness, naturality, and excitement...haha...but i dont care bro...the crowd were cheering for all of us...;)

~ this was certainly the night of 365x2 nights in MCB....

"my beloved student...today...we will learn a topic called LOVE"

2009-03-01T10:29:00.003+08:00

L.O.V.E...?

hurmmm...it's a learning time.....=)...few syllabus had been covered thru out the nites...

patience...appreciation...mutual understandings...empathy...consideration..and the list goes on...and it's ok...=)..these obstacles are parts of our excursion to the adultness...we will never stop learning till we die...the key strength is maturity...goodbye teenage life....!;)

u.P.d.A.t.E.s

2009-03-01T09:54:00.003+08:00

well...life been pretty hard so far...with IRP started intensively...eventhough it is not officially started just yet...but the IRP meeting seems sumthing precious among kmbians...here and there we can see those year twos sit in a group...discussing...revising....chatting...and sumtimes GOSSIPING...huhu...not excluded my group la...and this phenomenon will continuously go on til may i am cock sure..insyaAllah with high commitment+perseverance+cooperations+considerations+prayers+blessings, we will make it girls...(im d only boy in my irp...=D..)

the nite of 6th march is approaching...for kmbians, this is the time for them to show their talent in the SOLTE A'ALMA's nite..this is one of the most anticipated night in kmb i would say...will i perform on that night?? hahaha....u better try ur luck to find me..;)

yesterday i went to mid valley for a small reunion of my ex-class in Jasin...there were nad (the pipi gemox from KTT~india bound dentistry student)...ernnie (the purple never lose from taylors~australia bound biotech student..=P)...zamir...(the batu api neraka from taylors..haha..~australia bound chem engine student..)...and ecah and amir..(err...the DOC in the making from bukit changgang???) haha...it was fun! we sat at the food court for 4 hours just to dig up back all the stories that have not been updated since 2 years back! huhu...time not flies...time speeds with speed of light! the 4 hours session was filled with lot lot lot lotsa laugh! my cheek kinda wanna explode...nad's already exploded..=P...my jaw like sengal2 already after we went back home....it was a good therapy though after a stressful life these few days back... thx to my frens...you guys really had cheered me up...;)

My mom just undergone a minor operation to remove a waste liquid that suddenly appeared on her wrist...she was fine now...alhamdulillah...and she was doin really great...and the most interesting thing to know is she got 2 weeks medical leave! mak! this is unfair! hahaha...

mid sem break is in 2 weeks time...im not really excited bout it coz the mood to study is mushrooming...i dont wanna ruin it...so it will be a "mild" holiday for me...and insyaAllah, i will be fine with it...=)

till next tyme guys...~~

L.O.V.E is the master key of H.A.P.P.I.N.E.S.S (a tribute to NfD and NmS)

2009-02-09T16:55:00.003+08:00

My friend would call me jiwang once they read this entry’s title, certainly. But guys, read on. U may think twice to call me such that.

Well, first of all, let us put our brain outside where it used to be..or in other words, THINK OUT OF THE BOX..hurmm…most of the time, people will relate LOVE with relationship between sexes (including me)…yes, it is true..no one can prove you wrong…but love is just way broader than that…I call it as...

“The Chain of Hearts"

Chain No. 1 : God’s love is the greatest love of all

The first love that we should seek is the love from our Creator. Why I said so? Okay..imagine you are after a new character in Gossip Girl, Miss Carr..(Serena’s teacher)… I bet most of the guy would say she is damn gorgeous…(isn’t she? You better check your eyesight..=P) She is your dream girl….She is so cute…adoreable…matured…and all other flattering words on earth are hers… One day, you are given a chance to meet her..After a few months dating, pop! Declared! You guys are hooked! Wow….the world is yours dude! At that time, I am 200% sure that if Miss Carr asked anything from you, you are willingly to grant her with what she wants…..Okay…Now erase the image of Miss Carr! Erase it buddy! You are back in your real life…! (berpijak di bumi yang nyata ok!)Now…imagine that you are a decent boy/girl…kindhearted….religious….and stuff….Everyone like you….and im sure, God loves you as well…If you ever ask something to Him, there is no reason you will not get it….Isn’t it nice? Be loved by our own Creator…and get everything you want in this life…? I would say that, If God loves you, you will be loved by every single thing on Earth…as simple as that….But what matter is, How to be loved by God? Simple question sometimes doesn’t need complicated answer….you just need to do what He asked you to do….and leave everything that He forbids…insyaAllah…the greatest love of all is yours…=)

Chain No. 2 : It is not wrong to be a mummy’s boy or a daddy’s girl

I am not one of them of course but I am glad that I am equally loved by both of them…Even all of my sisters are just like me…my parents never differentiate their love for their children….eventhough I’m the youngest in my family with 3 sisters above me, but I never felt like one…I am not being pampered like some other youngest spoilt brats in other families…. Thank God for that…..n thanx to my parents as well for all the loves poured in my life for the past 20 years….without you guys, I will never be here….where I am standing write now…please do keep reminding me….because sometimes, people do forget things…..

For mummy’s boy and daddy’s girl, don’t get offended! Haha….actually, you guys are just like me..equally loved by both mummy and daddy…but you just get some extra loves by one of them…you get more than others….!

Chain No. 3 : L.O.V.E is in the air....

After you have tied up chain no. 1 and 2….the third chain will be just a piece of cake…A teenager like me would always loved to be loved by someone…but don’t be hastily into it..just go with the flow….never get carried away…my friend once told me….we get wiser as we grow older…we are just in searching of our maturity….take love as the strength to rise above…not a force to pull you down….love her/him as much as you could, never fooled her/him but remember, you have other people around you…you have other obligations as well…you are not live in your own world…do care about other people…because if it is written, when the time has come,SHE/HE is certainly yours...

So people, do search for the master key of your own HAPPINESS… treasure it as you trail on the exquisite excursion…don’t waste it..but remember, no. 1 does not come after 3…

Recipe of bandung soda of the day : search it…feel it…treasure it….

2009..anticipate more spices...!

2009-01-01T23:17:00.003+08:00

hye people...:)
it has been a while since the last tyme i post an entry on my blog...kinda busy and not in the mood lately...i read bunch of blogs but very liat to write on my own blog...

okay...most of my frens had a recap on their achievements, ups and downs in 2008...glad to read their sweet memories and sometimes i remember mine too...yes...2008 was a tremendous year for me and evryone i believe because anything that happened before was granted by God not for nothing, but for something...even the bad one...so, let's just take those "presents" with alhamdulillah...=)

i had a good start for my 2009...=)....and just hope all the days,years,decades,centuries ahead will be smooth for me and evryone around me....avoid bumpy roads but if it were meant to be your path, (im reminding myself too) go through it with courage....you guys have your own weapon to counter with anything....the weapon does not need any money or license to be bought....just some efforts to put our hands together and say our PRAYER....

talking about prayer, just hope that every MUSLIM in this world would help our brothers and sisters in Palestine by at least (if you could not avoid MCD, PEPSI, cigars etc. goods made by only God-knows-who that the revenue is meant to be JEWS eventually) pray for their safety...this is our efforts as we will be question in afterlife on what have we done to protect our bros and sis there.....

so, just quote from one of my classmate's blog....BUCKLE UP safwan....! not only at the rear seat but for the whole excursion of 2009...! its gonna be fun! ;)

~chiow~

a lesson worth 490 yuan

2008-12-14T03:25:00.008+08:00

day 2 - sunny gold street market - 4.00pm (local time)

(gambar sbelah bukan kat sunny gold...saje jek letak..hahahaha)
sunny gold street market nih jual mcm2 brg murah....kirenye nih cm petaling street la kalau kat m'sia...kat beijing ni ade 2,3 tempat mcm nih....n kalau sape2 yg x thn nafsu,leh hilang beratus2 yuan kat tmpt cmni....

the con begins....

i was wondering around in the mall xtau nk bli ape....nk rembat souvenir for my frens, tp xde duit...dlm wallet tgl rm10 jek...mane laku kat beijing...
then tgh jalan2, tbe2 nmpk my 2 sisters kat dlm satu kedai souvenir....join la diorg skali....diorg tgh bargain.....igtkan bargain ape...rupenye tgh bargain *tut* (name souvenir dirahsiakan...:P)....

my sis: how much is this?
amoi : if tourist from us or england i sell this at 345 yuan..but only for you aaa...i sell this at 150 yuan..you wanna buy?

ble dah dgr 150, ape lg, i used my bargaining skill la...

me : aiya...we dont have much money now la...this is my last day in beijing (tipooo... :P) give us more discount la...
amoi : how much do you want?
(my sis wanna put 100 yuan but after getting signals from me, i asked her to put 50 yuan)
my sis : 50 yuan can?
amoi : (ngn ala2 muke tekejut cm br tgk kucing pkai boxer) are you crazee??? that is so low....
my sis : we buy this for 7 pieces! so all together 350 yuan..is that ok?
amoi: no! 7 pieces 700 yuan!
me : we add one more...we buy eight! 600 yuan? ok?
amoi : 610!
me and my sis : deal!
(act the bargaining process was longer than this...tp kene pendekkan la...kang nnt boring lak....)

pastu kteorg pn after dah pau few yuan from our beloved dad and kak long, kteorg blah la dr kedai tu.....

in my mind : kalau 8 pieces 610 yuan, each dah 76.25yuan....ok la tu.....

few minutes later, kak long dtg from don't know where,asking me...

kak long : wan, td wan bli *tut* tu brape yuan 1?
me : 76.25 yuan..nape?
kak long : hahahahaha...akak bli 15 yuan jek kat kedai tu..(sambil tunjuk satu kedai yg bukan kedai yg kteorg bli td...)
my dad : ayah pn td bli bnde tu dpt 20 yuan jek....tp kat kedai yg lain dari korg la...
me : (dgn muke keciwa n xtau nk ckp ape..) yeke?...ok.....

if kteorg beli kat kedai yg kak long beli tu td, kalau beli 8 baru 120 yuan...kteorg kene 610 yuan...so 610-120=490 yuan.....
hurmmmm...bile tgk muke amoi yg tpoo kteorg td tu blk,siyes rase cm nk sepak2 jek....tp kang ade die pgl geng lak...coz situ tmpt diorg kan....kite nih bukan org situ...x pasal2 x blk m'sia...reda jek la even after dat kalau nmpk souvenir tu lg, sure terigt pasal kekurangajaran amoi tu...dah la hodoh...huhu...(sorry ar kasar...tp siyes geram!)

day 3 - silk street market - 4.00pm (local time)

kteorg smpai lg kat satu lagi "petaling street" m'sia....kat sini dh pndai sket dah....kali nih dah aim xnk kene tpoo lg...dah dpt lesson worth 490 yuan kot....and nk dipendekkan cte, ble kuar from there, nih la hasilnye....

1.satu jeans levi's 505 (x ori ar...name pn street market) yg berharga 110 yuan (rm59) setelah aku bargain from innitial price yg die offer 800yuan.
2. satu souvenir chinese caligraphy worth 15yuan bargain from 2o yuan + 2 pics with 2 siblings of amoi age 17 and 25 and experience kene ngorat ngn adik amoi....(die main pijak2 kasut gua beb! pastu wat muke comel....bajet tol... :p ....die kureng la...tp akak die lg cun beb!)
3. and few other souvenirs.....

see??? im good at bargaining already maaa...experience of being cheated by 1 amoi has thought me a lot in shopping at beijing...but it comes with price...but hey....only a day after dat, i've become a good bargainer already....

b@nDuNg $oD@'s recipe for today :
So...my conclusion is..to be wiser, you have to sacrifice a lot! same goes to our study la guys....if you wanna fly, (city,kent,soton,herriot watt,LSE,UEA,Swansea) you have to sacrifice your sleep, your leisure time, your energy and lots more to ensure you become wiser and then get a good IB point so that you can go to any universities that you applied to....

and of course, if we failed once, bounce back guys....we are capable of it...(im reminding myself too)...learn from our mistakes....don't be like the lanslide occured somewhere in KL last few days....we have to learn from our mistakes so that we will never fall again...if we bounce back, who knows we will be even better than all the top scorer (whose their great great great grandparents were not originated from Tanah Melayu) in KMB today...but if we didn't, we will fall even deeper....

this is the precious experience that i learnt exclusively from Beijing....syiea syiea (thank you) ;)

~story end~

it pays off...

2008-12-11T06:28:00.003+08:00

assalamualaikum....

hye people....im already in beijing.. ;)....this is my second day here...kt cni sgt2 sejuk....before we arrived here, we were told dat there will be no snow time kteorg dtg cni which suppose to fall actually...but meby due to global warming, die x turun.... but meby rezeki we all kot....sesampainye kteorg kat beijing international airport, kuar2 jek tgk ade bnde putih2 jatuh... nak kate hujan, tp nape air die tebal sgt.....

salji!!!!!

Gosh!! sgt jakun kteorg main snow time kuar airport tu...(yela...baru forst time kot pegang salji ciptaan Tuhan...before this pegang ciptaan manusia punye...x ori... :p) huhu....temperature here around -6 to 3 degree celcius...sgt2 sejuk...mule2 kak long cabar nk bg 100 yuan kalau kuar airport just ngn t shirt n jeans jek...bes gak tu....tp br 3 minit kuar airport, dah x thn kot...!!! so cancel la kak long....saye sangat2 sejuk....hahahahaha....

mknn kat sini not bad...kteorg mkn kat restoran muslim kat sini...cume x bpe pedas la...x kick....hurmmmm...kat sini mlom lg panjang dr siang....pukul 5pm dah gelap....630pm dah masuk isya'....tp subuh lebih kurang cm kat m'sia....

hurmmm....today kteorg nk gi great wall...may we all have a great time at GREAT ! WALL...chiow.... ! ;)

vacation!!!!!

2008-12-09T11:14:00.005+08:00

huh!! it was such a long time since i last post my entry here....sorry guyz....i'd been soooo terribly busy with my final sem 3, unending assignments and stuffs....but now im having my.......

HOLIDAY!!!!!!!!

HAHAHAHA......this is the time i waited for so long.....i got back to my sis' house last friday....and cant wait no longer, on saturday i went out with my friend at PAVILLION....i had a great time there....miss those moments so much....and today is TUESDAY, 9 DEC 2008, Im bout to leave tonite...to.........

BEIJING...!!!!!

hehe....dah 13 years x holiday to oversea....i'll be going with my whole family for a week...my flight tonite is at 1230am....and i'll be back to malaysia on next monday, 15 dec 09 at 330pm....im so excited to go there but at the same time definitely i'll miss my friend here....see you soon kay..... ;)

p/s : anyway, my blog just halfly editted...i wanna add sumthing to make it more relevant to the title...so,for the tyme being, don't laugh due to its kejambuan kay...heh..:P

it's life dude...keep going... :)

2008-10-31T18:55:00.002+08:00

aslmkm...hye people..

it has been a week since i last post a comment...my bad...im soo stuck with stack of workloads and revision....eventho it was a hectic,suffocating,eyes constrained week but at least,im still keep going...the week was started with a good news....director of KMB had declared that all non medic student like me will not be ranked and placed by the college for our university placement....instead, we are free to choose any country that we like the most...alhamdulillah...:)....this is d bless of the prayers from my lovely mom n dad, sisters and all my supportive friends....who never get bored to pray what's best for me.....thanx for always being on my side guys....but despite of a good start, my weekdays ends with a tragedy....a MILD tragedy...why i say so??? coz for me, i can handle it well....bring it on....i believe in Him...."God won't burden someone for something he could not bear" (surah albaqarah : 286)...i just do the best for everyone...the rest, i let Him decide.... :)

final exam is approaching...27 nov - 5 dec.....i must workhard from now on...burn the midnite oil...so that i can prove to everyone that i am capable of being one of the excellent future actuary from MARA College Banting....mak,ayah...just wait for the moment....the moment for both of you to smile, smile to see me succeed in my studies and proud for having me as one of your sparkling stars among 3 other precious diamond....

kenape ek???

2008-10-24T18:20:00.002+08:00

allow me to write in Malay....

hurmmmm...kenapa kdg2 hidup kite ni brubah scare drastik???

bile pagi bgn tidur tu, kiter rase bersemangat sgt nk truskan kehidupan yang merupakan anugerah Allah yang sgt tak ternilai harganya....rase smgt tu mcm br pas menang Gold medal kat Olympic...

tp ble smpai jek kelas....ade jek smthg jadi....yang akn lower down blk our enthusiasm tu....

kenape ek???

hurmmmm.....kenapa kdg2 kiter rase kiter ade ramai kawan....kiter rase kawan2 kiter sume sayang kite....coz kiter nmpk yg diorg happy ble lepak ngn kiter....tp ttbe, x pasal2 kiter kene ngn kawan kiter sndri....konon2 nk gurau.....kdg2 mmg kiter cube jd sempoi.....layan jgk la gelak bile diri sendri kene....tp kdg2 boleh thn jgk diorg kenekan kite....smpai wat kite ni cm xde value....

kenape ek???

hurmmmmm....kenapa kdg2 kite x nmpk ade certain2 org yg ptutnye jd kwn baik kiter....tp kiter x sdr pn...kiter wat x endah jek diorg tu....tp bile kiter dah xleh jumpe diorg lg, baru kiter tau yg diorg tu sbnrnye kwn yg baik....time tu for sure dah trlambat kan???

kenapa ek??

hurmmmm......kenapa kdg2 kite rase kite free....bebas menjelajah bumi Allah ni....xde tanggungjawab...mcm dunia ni kiter punye....kiter leh wat suke2 kte jek...tp sbnrnye tanggungjawab kite yang hakiki kite lupe.....padahal tu sume kene buat evrytime....n x spatutnya lupe...tp cmne leh sng sgt lupe?? bnde2 lain sng lak igt.....

knape ek???

knape kdg2 kter rase kiter hebat....kiter gempak dlm SPM....PMR...UPSR....tp nk jwb soalan kinematics physic pn susah...bukan tu jek...nk hormat cikgu pn susah utk kite.....jgn kate cikgu la....nk hormat mkck DS pn xleh....parents jgn cte ar....slalu sgt kte tggi suare ngn diorg...

knape ek??

Ya Allah ya Tuhanku....ampunkanlah dosa2 ku....berikanlah aku petunjuk ke arah jalan yang benar.....Amin.....

Fatwa on Tomboys

2008-10-24T16:56:00.003+08:00

THE STAR, Friday October 24, 2008

Fatwa on tomboys

KOTA BARU: The National Fatwa Council has ruled that tomboyism, where a girl behaves or dresses in a boyish manner, is forbidden in Islam.

Its chairman Datuk Dr Abdul Shukor Husin said the decision was prompted by recent developments as there had been cases of young women inclined to behave like men and indulging in homosexuality.

Parents must stop their children from indulging in disruptive activities that are against Islamic teachings, he told reporters here yesterday. Bernama

hurmmmm....interesting huh??? after so much hatred on this small portion in our community, finally the issue meets it ends....only God knows the agony countering with this kind of people especially when I was kinda challenged by one of them.....Alhamdulillah,my prayer is heard by God....and i won't stop praying....praying for their guidance from God....hoping that the opportunity granted by God to them to be a humble and gorgeous woman is not taken for granted.....the door still open wide for you all....u just need to find the key and enter it with wisdom and maturity....remember, God always loves us...eventhough we neglected Him....how kind He is to us right?? please buddy...it's still not too late to turn to the right path.... =)...wallahualam...

friends 4 ever....

2008-10-22T19:52:00.003+08:00

hurmmmm...finally we are called to actuarial science's placement briefing this afternoon....our placement officer said that we can choose between two countries, UK or Canada...hurmmm...of course i choosed UK coz it has been my dream country all this while but at the end of the day, the officer will rank all my coursemate accordingly to our result...maybe UK will be a place for top scorer kot in my class...honestly i can't imagine where i will be placed...im just hoping, wherever it is, it's the best for me...(kalau kene gi canada, beku la diriku nnt...huhu...).....hurmmm..to my bestfriend, Jang, if we are not placed in the same Uni., or even in the same country, hope you won't forget me....we have been friends since Jasin lg....eventhough we always "main fizikal" and "bahan2" each other, but you still my bestie dude! hahahhahahaha...if you already found your MFL, jgn jd cam TOMPOK lak,lupe member...hekhekhek...TOMPOK, kalau ko bace bnde ni, contact ar kteorg blk kat sni....ok guys, till we meet again at the next post...im trying so hard to make my blog as interesting as i could.... ;)

relieved.... =)

2008-10-22T19:35:00.004+08:00

fiuh....!! alhamdulillah...! im sooo relived ryte now...finally the TOK presentation has over! it was damn tiring for me all this while thinking about this damn important presentation...hurmmm....=)....to my groupmates, it is paid off guys after we went thru a lot of hardship,ups and downs for almost a month! (org lain sume prepare kejap je kot...=P)..eventho we have some minor flaws,overall miss fazlinda seems satisfied with it..hurmmmm..so tonite leh la we concentrate on other things but certainly not TOK presentation anymore....;)...to ayu,hana n taf sorry for everything if i ever hurt you while preparing for this presentation...n for hana, remember the song i sang...bleeding in love....(kalo xnk aku nyanyi lagi lagu tu, u better eat a lot k! hahahahahah...=P)....hurmmmm.....n im relieved too becoz last nite (around 2 am ++) finally ive told what i kept within myself for quite sumtime to a person that's so important in my life...it is just so nice knowing that the person already knew it...=)...n i hope things will get better and clear onwards... :)

01.09.10

2008-10-18T16:15:00.005+08:00

it has been 1 year,9 months and 10 days....
and it is still going on and on and on.....
i don't care when it will end....
but what i concern is how the waiting will be over......
whatever it is, i hope i'll be smiling when the time has come....
don't worry about me...
for i am a patriot...
a patriot has to be patient...determine....focus....
a patriot will not easily give up....

ultraman vs ultraviolet???

2008-10-17T23:18:00.004+08:00

hahahaha...for the time being, let the reason behind my blog's title be a special thing between certain people...:)

will the economic meltdown affect me???

2008-10-17T23:04:00.002+08:00

hurmmmm......somebody said to me yesterday that MARA was telling the KMB teachers to get the student prepared mentally to accept the worst case scenario that the students might not going abroad due to the economic downturn....altho this was just a rumours and might not be tru,but it sparks sumthing in my head...hurmmm..for me....i have thought bout this long time ago....it goes in n out in my head...let me put it like this....n i hope all my friends will also have the same thought as me....hurmmm...if our "rezeki" had been written by Allah saying that, Malaysia is the place best for us, well just accept it...reda with it k...coz He knows the best... :)....but if we were fated to eventually go abroad,no matter how bad is the economy, or no matter how bz we are with out T.O.K, EE, IA and stuffs, insyaAllah we will still be in the plane soon....=)...anyway, this is a note to mr. WAndoG, "wan, lu mmg pecah time TOK td!!!" hahahahahah..see u guys soon...!

friendship and love???

2008-10-15T15:19:00.002+08:00

hurmm...if you ever heard a song named "lucky" by jason mraz and colbie caillat, there's is a line saying, "lucky im in love with my best friend".....hurmmm...is it true??? i dont know...for me its a kind of awkward to fall in love with your own best friend coz...it's just...urgghh...how to say ek??? hurmmm...it's just so awkward!! hurmmm...me personally, had several times fallen into kinda crush with my bestfriend (well...especially in school before..)...but after think it twice, i guess it's the care of you towards your bestfriend...not love...you are so concern with her until you confusely think that you are in love with her...but...well...i may be sound so conservative here....but that's my personal view....and i think there are lots of people out there that are in love with their best friend! but not me....hopefully...ahahahaha...but i wont avoid it if it happens to me one day...hahaha..kidding! =P.....hurmmm..nway,why did i bring this matter up?????? well....this is just my appreciation to my bestfriends! ;)

welcome me!

2008-10-14T14:01:00.000+08:00

hahahahaha...im a blogger now!!! hehehe..thx to raje....the extreme blogger in my class for introducing me into this new world...hahaa...im in class ryte now...bout to go back to my room and have some stuff done....i will update this freshly built blog from time to time...c ya soon!!